Well in a nut shell, being pregnant during a quarantine is lonesome, scary and not fun.
Yup. Definitely just jumped into it here.
To say the least…it’s been tough, however there are a few silver linings which I’ll get into later.
Some of the downs….
For me, quarantine and coronavirus has been more downs than ups.
When we first found out we were pregnant, I was ECSTATIC. Like, so, so, happy….and of course, still am!
We got to work right away on finding a hospital we wanted to deliver at, a doctor and our first appointment, during week 8.
A week 8 appointment is a standard appointment on the pregnancy journey and I felt so anxious before it because we had gone 2 months not knowing what was happening with our baby. I know that miscarriages during the first trimester are extremely common, so I was V worried about what our outcome would be.
The morning of our 8-week appt. we received a call from our doctor saying the appointment was cancelled. He said he wanted to limit the amount of times I had to come to the hospital due to Covid-19…although I completely understand where he was coming from, I was total emotional wreck and just burst in to tears.
He said to come back during week 12.
I was in TOTAL agony not knowing the fate of our baby for another 4 weeks.
Once the 4 weeks were up we went in for our 12-week appointment and our first ultrasound to see the baby. When we got to the hospital, it was scary…we entered in and were immediately stopped to answer a series of questions, were provided surgical masks and was given an escort to take me directly to my room.
The worst part about all of this was that Justin wasn’t allowed in the hospital to join me in seeing our baby for the first time.
I know, I know…a lot of pregnant women have had to go to the same experience without their partners, but as first-time parents, this was a major blow & the ultrasound tech wasn’t exactly comforting.
She told us that “we weren’t the only ones” and that there would be “plenty of more appointments.”
Although the second part is true, there are only 2 times you get to see your baby before he/she is delivered (unless there is a medical complication).
They let me video record the session for Justin as our baby popped onto the screen and did a full somersault in my belly.
I LOST IT.
So emotional…I immediately started crying. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
I cried, alone in the ultrasound room, as I sent the video to Justin who was waiting in the parking garage where he cried alone.
It was heartbreaking to not be able to share that moment together.
If you are someone who had to go through this also, my heart goes out to you.
Justin is an inpatient Physical Therapist and one of the country’s leading Rehabilitation hospitals, so he is required to go to work every day, while I have been working from home since March 11th.
I’ve been home for a LONG ASS time and like many of you I am driving myself fucking insane in quarantine.
I miss my friends. I miss going to restaurants, I miss a good cocktail.
If you aren’t having a cocktail or hitting a joint in quarantine, i have no idea how you are getting through it…because I have no idea how I am getting through it LOL.
Sobriety during this time, well SUCKS.
Being home alone during this time, well SUCKS.
I can’t put it any nicer.
I’ve been trying to fill my days with a routine schedule.
I wake up, take Khush for his morning walk, come home and tidy up the living room and feed him breakfast.
Next, I turn on my laptop for work, eat breakfast and work until noon.
At noon I take Khush for another walk. I come back home, have lunch and then either workout or cook dinner for that night.
I then log back on to work.
If I have meetings during those times (which is often) I adjust my schedule here and there.
At 4 pm, I take Khush out to the park for play time, so that he can run around and wait for Justin to get home.
I usually take a shower around 5:30pm, once I have cooked and worked out.
Then Justin and I spend the evening together; talking, reading, watching tv.
Justin and my family have made it clear that they would prefer if I didn’t run any errands.
So – all errands like, grocery shopping, etc. is done by Justin.
As someone who loves going to the grocery store, this blows too LOL.
What are some of my silver linings?
Well…the plus side to this, was that I was able to hide my pregnancy during the first trimester with ease.
I didn’t have to worry about my bump getting bigger around colleagues and friends.
It was easy to not have to explain why I wasn’t drinking, since we aren’t leaving the house.
It was also great because I was VERY tired during the first trimester, so taking quick cat naps here and there have been amazing.
THIS has been my experience during quarantine.
If you’re a soon to be mama what has been your experience? Are you loving or hating?